Historically always “something”, ever since I discovered my first playboy when I was a kid. Still 99% something but I do find myself less and less inspired by live action porn.
Drawn porn is a bit more creative when it comes to scenarios and kink so I find that when I can, but even then I find it harder to discover stuff that tickles the brain. If I just want to cum, just to physically check the box, then I don’t need anything, but if I want the full mental experiences then I want something that’s going to surprise me a little.
I mention this because with generative AI and such the lines are beginning to blur for me. I’ve found quite a lot of excitement using AI to generate erotica or role play really out-their scenarios which end up being a combination of my imagination and existing material. I find it exciting to really tap into weird ideas with my imagination, but still have the excitement of a possible surprise that comes from consuming something created by another person. It can even feel like playing with a real partner, some excitement about how “they” will respond to a scenario, while being able to selfishly let loose with any desire or perversion.
Playing with AI to write porn in turn made me remember my early sexual awakening writing dirty stories back and forth on good ole’ msn with video partners as a teen.
So yeah in my life 99% something, but I’m trying to rediscover the imagination aspect, and I’m finding AI an interesting way back to that .
The shine for porn has worn off a bit for me too. You might find messing with AI role play or story generation something to take the edge off for less money . For me it adds a bit of the excitement in discovering how my virtual partner will respond that can feel a bit like the excitement of being surprised by a real partner. It’s not perfect by any stretch but if your looking for something to scratch and itch for less than a cam girl.
Nothing wrong with wanting interaction with a real person either. This might be something you go to in addition to irl partner , or maybe just not a good time, and I don’t know your personal circumstances and don’t want to patronise, but just in case you need to hear it; don’t give up on finding someone to share your sexuality and/or love with irl. You have good in you, and even though the world isn’t fair and some of us find it more difficulty than others, there’s someone out there for everyone. Keep putting yourself out there and treating people with kindness.